Monday, August 20, 2007

Super Quick Update

I had orientations for my assistantship on Thursday and Friday and I got a surprise. I found out that I was chosen for the Presidential GA, but I failed to receive that letter in the mail. Dr. Hanlon (graduate coordinator) said that "the wires got grossed in the grad department." So, this is supposed to be an honor because it is a "highly coveted position and only a handful of students are given Presidential assistantships University-wide." But, most of you know that I worry and have problems with anxiety about everything. So, what was going on in my head? "Oh no, I had everything planned out as far as childcare and trying to predict what the future would hold and now I'm going to have different duties/meet new people/have to figure out what's going on!" I was told that this would be good for me however because it provides more flexibility. But I get nervous about meeting new people in the academic world and now my mind is in overdrive thinking that they're all going to have some standard in mind about what a Presidential assistant is supposed to be like and I just won't measure up. I hope I'm good enough for the job.

Sorry that's such a jumbled mess! I guess what I'm asking you to do is pray for me. I have so many self-doubts and I can't shake them off very well. I never think I'm good enough or smart enough to do anything that actually requires thinking power. This may surprise you because I have been in school for awhile but I really get nervous thinking about what lies ahead for me. So, if you could pray that I keep my sanity and that I don't forget that God is always there...I would appreciate it. Thanks.

7 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hey Sweetie,
yes I will pray for you. I am so happy for you. Remember that you are smart enough and quit having the self doubts. I'm sorry that I probably passed that on to you. You have so much going for you. You are the smartest person I know, you have a wonderful and supportive husband and a wonderful baby. What more can I say. I love you and am very proud of you.
mom

August 20, 2007 12:31 PM  
Anonymous kathy said...

I will be praying for you! Remember the verse I claim daily: "Be strong in the Lord and in the strength of his might!" Eph.6:10
You go girl!!! You are amazing and you can do it!

August 20, 2007 6:34 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

yay, congratulations.. it sounds like it will be really good. More time for Riley! And I think you'll do well with the website. Although different, I'm sure that you will be able to accomplish whatever is needed for the job, you're super smart and I think they'll be happy that they have you in that spot! See you later! Love~ Val

August 20, 2007 7:15 PM  
Blogger agitswhoiam said...

Thanks everyone.

August 21, 2007 2:17 PM  
Blogger Heather said...

stop yourself. do we need to visit with beth moore some more? you're just the person for the job, amanda!

August 22, 2007 1:57 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Of course you can do it!! They wouldn't have picked you if they didn't see your amazing gifts! Congratulations! Phil. 4:13 Love ya, Aunt Don

August 22, 2007 5:48 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Oh! and I am praying for you too! Aunt :D

August 22, 2007 5:50 PM  

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